Lately

Things are wonderful lately.  I cannot even believe how wonderful they are.  Before I had little Addison I would have good days and bad days and tired days and very unproductive days.  Now, every day is amazing.  I get tired, unproductive, very productive, overjoyed, and sad--but it's harder to remember those feelings when I look back over the day. Every day feels like I did something amazing, even if all I did was play with Addison and make dinner.

I'd say that we're in the swing of things.  The shock of "being a mom" all the sudden is past, and now I feel like nothing is new and it's completely normal to have a little sidekick.  

She's really quite a wonderful human.  I marvel all the time at her and try to learn from her.  She definitely came as her own person and is very opinionated on most things. But also, she will attempt things a million times and will only give up from boredom of mastering the task, but never from frustration. I wish I tried as hard as she does.

She will smile at me and Barrett every single time we smile at her.  It teaches me that I should greet everyone with a smile and it will be hard for them to refrain from doing likewise.

She is so easy to please. She likes what she likes and if we tend to those little needs she is happy.  I wish it was as easy to read adults. I realize that her overall attitude is to be pleasant unless something is actually wrong, and I feel like that is something I can work on.  It's so easy to look at the problems and focus on them.  But I love that she reminds to me to be positive. 

I'm amazed by her physical talents.  Never being around teeny kids kept me in the dark before she came. I had no idea that she'd be able to swim in a floaty, eat, play in the tub, turn on a music box, put things in a cup, or dance all by herself before she was even one. 

Time is flying quickly and I continue to shed a tear or two at least a few times weekly as I think of how fast the time will come when her whole teeny body won't fit in my arms and when I will have to stop nursing her and when her response to everything won't be to crawl to mom.  But I know things will be even greater in the future. My wish is that maybe she'll be able to learn to not move for more than five second so she can sit by us, or learn to snuggle, or sleep with me.

We are both pretty obsessed with her and not a day goes by that we don't comment on how awesome she is and how weird things would be without her.  What a blessing.